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Embrace the Suck

Published June 14, 2017 by Chloe Madison

I’m trying to tell myself to put on my big girl pants, grow up, and man up. But the future is really going to suck hard. It’s already more difficult than I thought it would be. I keep thinking of what I learned in academy: Embrace the Suck. It’s a military phrase meaning the situation is bad, but you have no choice so you need to deal with it. The fact that I’m having such a hard time makes me feel embarrassed to be so weak.

I have so much to do today and I don’t even want to move. Actually, I do- I just want to get in my car and go far, far away…ignore and forget about everything back here. I know, it’s not the most mature outlook, but it’s where I’m at right now. 

The other day I went to a beautiful place overlooking a section of the town. All I could think about was how idyllic everyone else’s life seemed and wanting to end it all. I was confused because I was looking at beautiful scenery and thinking negative thoughts. I didn’t get it and I still don’t. 

I feel so nauseated. Already threw up once today. I just don’t see how things can turn out well.