I have to end this on a positive note….and not so self-absorbed. Forgive me for that.
I’m grateful for so much. And my gratitude is deeper than I can express. I’m grateful for friends who have helped and encouraged and supported me over and over these last few months. I’m grateful for those who continue to do so. I’m grateful for my job and the young people I work with. I love them a lot. I’m grateful for my precious little snuggle bunny, my dog. He means so much to me. I’m thankful for my therapist and the help I’m getting: I’m grateful for God. I know in my head that God loves me and has patience with me and forgives me. I need to learn to believe that in my heart. I am so grateful for Jesus and all he’s done for all of us in this world. I’m grateful for this place I live in and the adventures I’ve had so far in life. I’m grateful for the people who have selflessly donated to help me pay the hospital bills. I’m grateful that we can talk to God through prayer any time, any day, under any circumstances. I’ve fallen off in my prayer quite a bit since the summer. I need to reconnect with God more. I need to learn to trust him. But regardless of my current feelings, I’m still thankful for all he’s done.
I’m grateful for so much. I really am. And I neglect to say that and to think on it.