I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Tears are welling up in my eyes and streaming down my face this very moment. I can’t stop. I have such a deep, deep sadness inside- it’s absolutely overwhelming and utterly crushing.
I can’t think straight…can’t get anything accomplished.
I feel terrible physically…emotionally. Nearly every thought in my head is criticizing or condemning some part of myself.
I seriously want my FA. I don’t even want to use it in that capacity- but I want it soooo badly.
I just don’t want to do this anymore. Ever.
I completely understand why people go down this road.